Sometimes I think that I'm just
missing the point of it all
and I wonder if I will ever get where
I belong

Now I'm looking up at the stage
and you're making me over
you pretend so well
with passion so real

and you're unafraid,
you're onstage and
everyone can see,
and I'm hoping in my mind

Chorus:
But it hurts so bad
to be afraid,
to want and not to get
and I'm Desperate,
and you know it and
you'll never let me in

So I'm watching,
you walk away
and you're making me feel like
I should do the same
You make me feel so strange
with passion so real

and you're unafraid, you're on stage
and everyone can see, and I'm
hoping in my mind

Chorus:
But it hurts so bad,
to be afraid to want and not to get
and I'm Desperate
and you know it and you'll never let me in

and you take a step and I step back,
and you walk away and I regret
you're only leaving a fool

'cause I'm waiting on somewhat who I've never met,
starting into a sun that I know will burn,
but only for you

Sometimes I think that I'm just,
missing the point of it all,
and I wonder if I will ever
get where I belong...

Porcelain

He draws me in,
He draws me in
Against his skin
I’ll never win

Chorus:
Porcelain dream me a dream
Porcelain make me believe
I’ll never be porcelain free

He braids my hair
With salted air
Bed sheets bejeweled in
Porcelain skin

Porcelain dream me a dream
Porcelain make me believe
I’ll never be porcelain free

At 4am, even better then
The velvet band against my hand
Even in my dreams
I’m not porcelain free

Porcelain dream me a dream
Porcelain make me believe
I’ll never be porcelain free

Like a River

It’s been a long time since I could smile easily
I try to recall those days to memory
But it’s so cold in this damn city
And cryin’ all night ain’t too pretty
But somehow you

Chorus:
Hold me and feel my soul in you
It’s like a river running through
You feel my heart
You feel my heart

Gets harder and harder being alone
Spend more and more time on my own
The sound of your voice takes my pain away
The feel of your arms around me takes my breath away
Somehow you

Chorus :
Hold me and feel me soul in you
It’s like a river running through
You feel me heart, you feel my heart
Bridge:
Feel my heart,
Feel my heart,
Feel my heart

Chorus :
Hold me and feel me soul in you
I’ts like a river running through
You feel my heart, you feel my heart

Truth Be Told

Angels in my backyard,
Sitting on my bike
Traitors in the front yard
Taking up my time
Pirates in the foyer
Feeling up the bride
How am I supposed to feel it if I cannot see?

Chorus: Truth be told
I don’t even know what i
Would do without you
Truth be told
I don’t even know what i
Would do without you

Try to make these fayed ends meet
In a manner of speaking
Mona Lisa from beneath
Feels her own feet leaking
Innocent enough they say
Doesn’t make me queasy
If it isn’t hard enough
I won’t make it easy

Chorus: Truth be told
I don’t even know what i
Would do without you
Truth be told
I don’t even know what i
Would do without you

Angels in my backyard…...

You’re Dreaming

You’re dreaming,
But I don’t know what about
You tell me
That you’ve been surrounded
By what you want

But you’re not so tough,
I’ll call your bluff
You won’t say what
You want

Chorus:
Take it out on me
Your pain, your anguish, your good deeds
I want them all inside of me
I want to be your queen

One night for hundreds more of
Tossed sheets, can you tell what they’re for?
Just show me what I’ve been missing
That’s all I’m asking

Bridge: For you I’ll show my
Softer side,
Cause I can’t hide
So humbled am I
That tears fill up my eye:

Chorus:
Take it out on me
Your pain, your anguish, your good deeds
I want them all inside of me
I want to be your queen

Sticks and Stones and Catacombs*

Intermittent water torture,
Drip by drip, the waiting is the worst
No comfort in the coolness
No comfort in, the silence
Time’s amoebic, day is night
Fear the random shot in the dark
And the spaces in between fail to illuminate the scene

Chorus:
Sticks and stones and catacombs
break you body break your soul
fear the deadly invitations
fear the times when you’re alone

Security fades amidst the minefield
No safety even in sitting still
Each moment chilling to the bone with
Sticks and stones and catacombs

A flash on light from total darkness shocks
The nerves, overwhelms the brain
Could come at any time
Lighting etched upon the mind
Far too long too cold to suffer
Cumulative effect maintains a life
Impossible to adjust, no pattern builds to trust

Chorus:
Sticks and stones and catacombs
break you body break your soul
fear the deadly imitation
fear the times when you’re alone

Shake, much to take, the natural state,
The body breaks and the mind cannot find
A grasp on time to place the crime
Of sticks and stones and catacombs of
Broken bones and random tones

Security fades amidst the minefield
No safety even in sitting still
Each moment chilling to the bone with
Sticks and stones and catacombs

One Kiss

Baby I don’t care that you’re leaving
You never understood me anyhow,
I’m just a sip of water to you
In your desert
But I had this dream, the other night
He and I we fit just right
And his flesh felt soft but it cut
Like a knife
And I tried to save his life tonight

Chorus:
One little kiss, it goes like this
It doesn’t mean anything, baby
That’s just one little kiss, that’s all it is
There ain’t know way it’ll save me

Sometimes when I’m out driving late,
I pop in some blues, my hair flies loose
And I try to pretend that there’s no end
To that night feeling and dreaming of you

But I had this dream, the other night,
I sat on his thighs and he held me tight
And his flesh felt soft but it cut like a knife
So I tried to save his life tonight

Chorus:
One little kiss, it goes like this
It doesn’t mean anything, baby
That’s just one little kiss, that’s all it is
There ain’t know way it’ll save me

Baby I don’t care that you’re leaving
You never understood me anyhow,
I’m just a sip of water to you
In your desert…

Camelot

Camelot must have housed such a child
Furious at heart, but told to be mild
Kindred of a queen, who’d grow to fight
The kingdom’s beasts
Bearing a weight that could not be ceased

Walking proudly in the midst of post-rain concrete
Broken are the drops that plunder all the city streets
Glistening mirrors tell the story
Tread upon by staggered glory

Chorus:
At dawn, wonder walks and holds down the sun
In the evening troubled thoughts consume
And even though the dream gets dark,its in me now
And even though the lights get dim I lift ‘em up somehow

Though the stars may not be crossed
In the way that lovers often are
The bitter taste of the pauper is not lost
The wrath of fatigue can never be marred

Chorus:
At dawn, wonder walks and holds down the sun
In the evening troubled thoughts consume
And even though the dream gets dark,its in me now
And even though the lights get dim I lift ‘em up somehow

Oh yea, alright, I feel the light
Oh yea, alright, I feel it…

Your Woman

I don’t want to dream about you
With another woman
I don’t want to dream about you
With another woman
With another woman, baby
In the sweet of your arms and holding
I don’t want to dream
About it, no

I want to sleep this evening
I want to count sheet
And play with my thumbs
And snore through my gums

I’m sleeping in shifts,
Counting the stars on
My fists

But I don’t want to dream about
You with another woman, oh no
Well, I don’t want to dream
About it, no

How many nights have I spent?
How many dreams have I dreamt?
But I don’t want to dream

Is she a woman?
Or is she a girl?
I don’t want to live
In your new woman’s world

Well I don’t want to live in her world
And I don’t want to dream about her
Well I don’t want to
Well I don’t want to
Well I don’t want to

Taste Your Soul

Lying in demi-light,
We talk through lips locked
A labrynth of beginnings and ends
And I try to feel, to remember
I try to image you
Kissing me tenderly
I grasp at your chest,
Hasty like the New York fall
That I’ve always known
Touching you with my hands
Crying with my fingertips
At your sides I shut my eyes tight
Focused on your beating heart,
And you tighten your arms,
And you say goodnight,
And the night says I’ll
Fall asleep beside you,
I don’t resist I try to
Questions and words run through my mind
As I drift off, and I think
You taste, like your soul
You taste like your soul,
You taste like your soul
And I drink, from this cup
I drink from this cup
And I try to feel and to remember,
I try to imagine you kissing me tenderly
And, I say goodnight
And soon it is fall in New York and
I’m all by myself,
I am all by myself
But you taste like your soul,
You taste like your soul,
You taste like your soul and I’m drinking
It up, as I wander this night
Through the tenderest of light
Can I drink from this cup,
Drink from this cup,
Drink from this cup?

Am I safe now?
Am I safe now?

You taste like your soul,
You taste like your soul
You taste like your soul…

*Sticks and Stones and Catacombs co-written with Harrison Demchick (download.com/harrisondemchick)